Monday, June 22, 2009

is it me? or...

hari ni baru aku sedar..
orang yang selalu bergelak ketawa dgn kita tu, tak semestinya TIDAK AKAN menikam belakang..
demi melepaskan diri..
orang sanggup berbuat apa sahaja..
that's life..

life is mean & cruel..
so do ppl around u..
tp takpe..
what goes around, comes around..
if thats what u asked me to do..
i'll give exactly what u need!

but please bear in mind..
in some cases, i could be mean too..
or maybe worst!
just dont be mad..
im just doing the favor..

Friday, June 19, 2009

dulu dan sekarang

taken dr buku on-loan aku..
"What To Expect When You're Expecting [by Eisenberg, Murkoff and Hathaway]":

Physically

  • Fatigue & sleepiness
  • A need to urinate frequently
  • Nausea, with or without vomiting, and/or excessive salivation (ptyalism)
  • Constipation
  • Heartburn, indigestion, flatulence, bloating
  • Food aversions and cravings
  • Breast changes: fullness, heaviness, tenderness, tingling; darkening of areola (the pigmented area around the nipple); sweat glands in the areola become prominent (Montgomery's tubercles), like large goose bumps; a network of bluish lines appear under the skin as blood supply to the breasts increases
  • Occasional headaches (similar to headaches in women taking birth control pills)
  • Occasional faintness or dizziness
  • Tightness of clothing around waist and bust; abdomen may appear enlarged, probably due to bowel distention rather than uterine growth
Emotionally
  • Instability comparable to premenstrual syndrome, which may include irritability, mood swings, irrationality, weepiness
  • Misgivings, fear, joy, elation

pregnancy kali ini barulah aku rasa ape yang aku baca kat buku/magazine/internet tu nmpk hala tujuannya..

terutama part ketakstabilan hormon yang mmg buat mood aku swing tanpa arah.
walaupun ni "first time yang bukan pertama", semua rasa baru bagi aku.
emosi mmg sah² tak stabil.
kadang² membebel tak tentu pasal.
kadang² senyum bahagia.
tp kadang² menangis sendirian.
tgk amazing race pun meleleh air mata, ape cerita?
skrg jangan kata tgk cite sedih je aku nangis, dgr lagu sedih pun dah bergenang air mata..hahahaha..

kadang² tu sebenarnya tade laa sedih sangat pun, tp tah..
kesan dia pehhhh!! kaw²..
cth amazing race tu, aku nangis sbb suka couple tu menang..
terharu sbb menang? apekah??

dulu mmg aku craving for foods..
mcm² aku nak mkn..
as early as 5 weeks lg..
mcm² aku mintak..hahaha..
skrg ni, craving la jugak..
tp taklaa seteruk yang dulu..

dulu as early as tau je, nak cari buah delima, senang je nak jumpa kat kedai buah atau mana² supermarket..
skrg ni, dah masuk 3 bulan baru dapat..
tu pun bukan dapat beli kat mesia..
mama kirim kat orang pegi mekah, dgn harapan ada buah delima tu kat mekah..
rupanya pun takde jugak..
tp alhamdulillah, rezeki aku, flight pakcik tu transit kat Bangladesh..
dia usaha gak cari kat situ..tu pun tak byk dia dapat beli..dlm 5 biji je dapat..

dulu tetiap malam, minum susu tu satu kemestian..
mmg termaktub la dlm checklist aku sebelum tdo, selain iron baju, sbyg isyak, gosok gigi & basuh muka..
tp skrg..hehehe..
dlm seminggu tu adala sekali 2 je aku minum susu..
adakah aku tidak se-eager dulu?

dulu masa scan, bentuk baby pun susah nak nmpk, apetah lg nak dgr heart beat.
2 minggu lps, alhamdulillah, we get to see the baby's movement masa scan on 12 weeks..
dah nmpk tulang blkg, tulang peha, kepala..dgn tangan & kaki yang bergerak²..
rasa mcm tak percaya itu dr dlm perut aku.. mcm tgk movie..
mungkin itulah semua ibu mengandung anak sulung rasa :)

sbb ini kan first time aku yang bukan pertama..
yang dulu mmg tak sempat nak tgk semua tu :)

dulu, mungkin masih awal, tdo aku masih aman..
tidaklaa seperti skrg yang tidak lena, kerap terbangun tgh mlm..
mmg "bonus" la kat aku yang mmg susah nak tdo balik kalau dah terjaga.

cuma satu je persamaan dulu dan skrg..
aku tak mabuk..
mual² tu ada, tp muntah² alhamdulillah mmg takde dlm kamus peknen aku..
buku on loan kata, "If you're among those who never had morning sickness, or rarely, suffer from it, you can consider yourself not only pregnant but lucky."
tp aku kata dlm hati, "normal ke?" :D

ape² pun, aku treasure every second of it..
kami suami isteri hanya mengharapkan yang terbaik..
semoga segalanya akan dipermudahkan oleh-Nya.. amiinn..

Monday, June 01, 2009

emi's birthday..

today, 01/06 is emi's birthday..
yang ke...hmmm..23? (muda lg rupenya ko mi? hahahaha)


tp dah sambut one day earlier..
smlm..
kat Halia Grill, Sime Darby Convention Center..


to emi, happy birthday!
grow wiser ok! :)

ilyana's moments..

alhamdulillah..
another TTG down.. :)



the best part was bila semua org ada..
tak kira laa yang sedang memboyot atau mengendong anak masing² :P
except for ita sbb admitted kat hospital selayang..
and reena sbb baru je delivered a baby boy 2 hari sebelum tu..congrats anyway!

to ilyana, u looked stunning, dear!
may u both live happily ever after!
mmuuuahhh!!