When nothing goes right....Just go left!

Its time to blog again..finally!! Dan rasa macam nak buat luahan hati..huhuhu.. Masuk harini baru 4 hari balik ke HQ office semula.. Sbb, bilik kat site office tu diorang nak renovate (dalam erti kata lain, diorang nak halau laa tu..huhu) Hmm tapi kemungkinan kena duduk di site office Putrajaya tu still gak tinggi sebenarnya.. sbb still in the same project, cuma different location.. Tak kesah laa..janji buat masa ni dekat sikit nak ulang alik.. :) In between last post dengan this post, walaupun gapnya dalam 4 bulan je, byk benda yang berlaku.. lepas ditimbang tara, rasanya paling lambat sampai hujung tahun ni je laa aku pegang title 'pekerja'.. lepas tu jadi pekerja gak..tapi pekerja sepenuh masa kat umah laa nampaknya.. Things definitely will be a bit difficult for us to adjust.. especially for me yang no-more-gaining-any-fixed-salary :/ But to think it in positive way: 1. Aku dapat urus anak2 comel kat umah tu.. 2. Aku boleh hantar & fetch lesya dari sekolah..sbb by next year, dia masuk 6 tahun..bila dah 6 tahun, takde sape dah boleh tolong fetchkan lesya dr sekolah..skrg ni tumpang ayah Damia..tp sbb Damia tu dah pun start masuk darjah 1 next year, so sape lg boleh tumpangkan lesya? 3. Boleh la meneruskan dream job iaitu menjahit sepenuh masa..(so bolehlaa start terima tempahan..keke) Cuma bila fikir banyak commitment lain yang nak kena bayar, cth CC, insurans, tolak gaji untuk simpanan tabung haji (untuk sendiri & anak2), buatkan aku serba salah :'( Kecuali aku doing well dengan jahitan2 atau tempahan2 aku.. Takpe, ini plan buat masa ni.. Aku yakin Tuhan dah plankan yang lebih baik.. Rahsia Tuhan takde sape tau kan? :)

yet to find out..

heard a news..
he's resigning..uhmm??
kenape ye?? dapat keje lain, or tak tahan dah handle project ni??
a fren of mine says, "sukela ko, org yang paling di'sayangi' ramai tu dah nak blah.."
hmm..suke ke? tahla..tade rasa pape..suke pun tak..tak suke pun tak jugak..tade beza pun dia ada atau tak..tp yang nyata, sume officemate mcm berpesta..meriah tetibe..huhuhu..

so who's next inline? oo having said that, the next PM will be the 5th PM to handle this project..hahah! at the moment, the project has been put up for 4yrs and still counting..
hmm..kat mana salahnye ye? i cant really answer that..since masa i joined this project pun, it has been critical enuf..am wondering, y is this project has been too complicated to manage? was it because of the architecture? the management? the client? or the attitude of the staff itself? hmm..yet to find out..

whatever it is..u'll be no longer working with us..wishing u the best of luck! just an advice, be careful of what u wish..if u wish to be a good manager, equip urself with the skills..i mean, the management skills..communicate with ur staff, let them know the situation that they are facing..acted like one! they get orders/informations from u, not from somebody else..be approachable! jgn tau nak bodek org atas je..backstab other ppl to be on top (euwwhh, it really sucks, man!)..do not just blame other ppl..and do not look down upon ppl..
u have been once in our position..im sure u know exactly how it feels..

oh ya, if u accidentally reading this, im not critisizing u..(or did i? its for ur own good tho..) im just saying outloud of what we felt all these while..anyhow, i apologize for all my wrongdoings, in those period we've been working together..just take this as a challenge! and i hope u'll success..

demotivated? uhmm..

malasnye nak keje arini..dah sedap cuti panjang.. ;p
ingat nak sambung lg cuti..tp memandangkan nti memerlukan cuti for becoming vacations, maka reserve la cuti2 tu..hehehe..
byk lg plan2 yang belum terlaksana ni..
*pulau perhentian, singapore, sg sedim* and the list will go on ;)
ala lagipun khamis ngan jumaat je..pastu cuti balik..yeehaa!

hmm..arini tade kawan..sbb kak idra cuti..
bukan takleh makan ngan bebudak ofis ni..
tp malas plak nak turun..dah tapao awal2 pg td..
sian..makan roti je utk lunch..huhuhu
hmm mmg buleh kurus kalau camni selalu..*wink* hahah!

sangatla bosannye..
keje tade sangat arini..sbb rasanye user2 masih cuti..
so tadela nak encounter byk problem dr user..
but...i'll be getting a new task starting tomorrow..
which, task yg telah cuba dielakkan..
i guess tak dapat nak elak lg...
i have to do..im forced to.. :(
sbb the guy who used to do the task, sangat slow buat keje..
actually he can do it..tp memerlukan masa yang agak pjg..
n i guess, he felt just what i feel, prolly the others too..we are demotivated!
haihhh..bile la nak berenti mengeluh ni..

yesterday was hoping not to approach KL in the morning..
tp malangnye, kene masuk gak..aihh..
sbb? sbb ajim kata arini last day dia kat klcc...
bile dia ckp camtu, kesian la pulak..

hampeh tul adik aku ni..smlm aku bbaik ati sbb 'first day'..
arini aku kene lg..'last day' dia pulak..
sbb esok dia dah start posting kat melaka..
takpe jim..sib baik 2 ari..
pastu..yg lg best, arini tak jam sgt..
so kol 802am, aku dah terpacak kat opis..
hahaha..lagi awal dr smlm..hahaha..mmg minggu yg gile..

pepagi tu, rasa mcm best je..ye la..mmg mcm tak saba la kan nak balik HQ..
rupe2nya, gembira yang kurasa tak sampai ke petang..
dlm kol 11, dia turun drpd meeting membawa perkhabaran yang mmg langsung menghancur-ranapkan impian2 aku nak balik HQ..
arrghhhh..tension nye!!
dah tau dah..mmg takleh pakai ckp2 dia ni..
ckp putar belit..kejap buleh, kejap tak..
kali ni dia nak assign aku buat keje lain plak..
kalau dah ada keje lain, sah2la kene tinggal lg kat sini..
takleh la balik HQ..uwaaa!!!

ptg plak dapat masalah lg dr user..
mmg terkenal user ni dgn kesengalan dia..
byk kali ajar pun tak lps2 gak..asek blur je..
tak ingat la..lupe la..
haiiiihhhhh...
lepas satu, satu yg dtg...
mencabar kewibawaan sungguh!
bile aku boleh balik nih???

no promises..not anymore.. :(

starting today onwards..i'll be all alone in the office.. :(
not la that "alone"..ada la lg colleagues yg masih tinggal..
tp sume nye lelaki..
kalau ada pun pompuan, sume level bos..
sorang suke buat keje sendiri..
sorang lg selagi lom kol 10, selagi tu la tak sampai..
hmm..clan2 pompuan aku sume dah di anta balik ke HQ..
aku?? masih di sini..~sigh..

dahla arini dtg awal..kol 820am dah sampai ofis..
slalunye naik komuter je..dah nak dekat kol 9 baru sampai opis..haha
tp arini kene drive sbb anta ajim g report duty kat petronas, klcc..
630am dah kua umah..sbb dia masuk kol 800am..
tak penah2 seawal tu kua umah...slalunye 630 tu baring2 atas katil lg..ekeke..
dah suruh naik lrt je, tp ngengade mintak soh anta gak..
ye la first day la kunun :p
pastu aku plak tu yang kene drive..
hmmph..takpela, adik punye pasal..

mak aih..punye la jam..ingatkan kua awal, kurangla jamnye..
hmmph, sama je..
cume kua awal, leh la sampai awal..
tp in terms of "jalan kosong kalau kua awal", jgn harap!
so sempatla sampai ofis dia td kol 745am..
rasanye serik dah nak masuk kl pepagi mcm ni..
esok soh dia naik lrt je..muahahhaha
tp aiseh..kol 730am la aku sampai opis sok..
dah sah2 dia nak kene naik lrt dari klsentral kol 730am..
takpe la, dr aku saket ati sbb jalan sesak, baik aku saket ati dtg opis awal..hahaha..
sanggup ke aku?? we'll see ;D

sampai ofis je, manager aku yang 'sangat disayangi' ramai dah sampai..
pastu tanye aku nak balik HQ ke tak..i was like, 'huh? boleh dia tanye soklan tu..of course i do! duhh..'
then he said, insyaAllah dlm bulan 5..
hmm should i trust him?? ni dah kali ke brape tah promises yang he made..
a few minutes after tu, dia g bfast ngan bbudak lelaki..
lps bfast, he came out with another promise, which will send me back to HQ in a few days time..perrghhh...tah ape la yang bbudak lelaki tu convincekan dia..hahahhahaha

then barula dapat tau, rupenye one of my colleagues sanggup amik alih tugas2ku..hehe..thx bob!
lgpun dah tak byk dah..
n i'll be reassigned to my previous team..hehe..
sbb dorang kesian tgk aku sorang2 terkebil2 kat situ..
terkebil2 ke aku?? muahahha..
takla sampai terkebil2..haha..ish, tade la..ada ke.. ;p
tp bile bfast & lunch hour, kene call my saviour..
kat projek lain, kat bangunan sebelah..huhu..
sib baik masih ada gak teman..thx kak idra :)
cumenye for future, if she's on leave, or mc ke..
haa..padan la ngan muke aku kan..kene la tapao jawabnye..
n what if hari jumaat plak masa tu..
hmm sah2 aku kene panggil another saviour..chucky or J or both..huhu..
sbb aku tau, i can count on them..mmuuahh! ;)
arghhh...kesiannye idup! ~sigh..

takpe takpe..i'll survive..yeah! only the strongest will survive! hiks..
(strong ke? baru first day tade kawan, dah sangap :< )
cume hoping yang he'll do as promised..
i cant take anymore fake promises! letih tau..

gud news..in a bad day..

hmm.. a day full of sickness, i would say..
woke up this morning dengan rasa saket kat gusi..
walked to the office dengan saket kat tumit kaki..
and been working dengan saket berdengung dlm telinga ni..
plus plak lg dgn berita some of my colleagues will be moving back to our HQ..
leaving me, only 1 girl left with a few other guys..
dah tade geng dah nak borak, bfast n lunch sesama ;'(
arrghhh..what a day!

but all of a sudden, everything turns fine..
y? hehehe..
just because of one letter..received from the company..
titled 'Promotion and Salary Revision'..
alhamdulillah..eventhough there would be no bonus for this year, a little increment would still cheer up my day.. :)
and another thing is, i've been promoted! hiks..
even tak sehebat mana pun, im still grateful for what i've earned..
hmm a part of the letter says, "This promotion is in recognition of the fine work you have done for the company" :)
all the hard work is now paid..alhamdulillah..
i hope i'll continue working with the same level of enthusiasm, or prolly more..insyaAllah..

went home with smile..
a little while later, baru terasa saket kat gusi tu balik..huhu..
bile check, saket tu actually is not coming from the gum..but it is an ulser indeed..
aihh..patutla semacam je rasa saket dia..
kalau kene ulser, slalunye minum air bergelen2, ulser tu akan surut sendiri..
kalau tak elok gak, g klinik la jawabnye kan..

for those yang nak balik HQ tu, sedia2kan la tmpt aku ye..
aku pun nak balik situ gak..uhuk uhuk..
dah lama tak rasa keje kat office sendiri..hmmmm.. :<

penaksir or psm? what say you? heh

shhhh....i went for an interview on 23rd feb..but not for the post of 'PSM'..tapi for 'Penaksir'..huhu
interviewer tu pun pelik..how come sumone with IT backgrounds, apply for post yang accounting students do? sedangkan post for 'PSM' pun ada opening..huhuhu..yep,its pelik tapi benar!! haha..
mana taknye..ni alasan nape dorang so very curious nak tau..hehe
"u dah ada good job..good payment..dah permanent pun..why do u still want this job?"..hahaha..
mmglaa dah ada gud job with gud payment..but for me, not that gud pun..i want more..that doesnt enough for me..hmm..i remember, my dad once said, "bagi la byk mana pun..tapi in the end, still tak cukup jugak.." hehe..yep, i agreed with that statement..nama pun manusia..tak penah puas dgn ape yang mereka miliki..lg2 zaman skrg..do u all agree? i bet u do..
but anyhow, im still grateful for what i earn..even tak byk, atleast i own them secara halal..even tak cukup, atleast tadelaa sampai tak makan langsung..Alhamdulillah..
oh ya..talking bout job..i feel very pity to those yang still unemployed..now mmg susah nak cari keje..if i own a company myself, sure korang sume ada keje...hahaha..besar tul angan2..takpelaa..never give up ok..rezeki ada kat mana2..mungkin masanye lom tiba..i wish u all the best..i'll pray for u :)
back to my story..hopefully i'll be one of the selected candidates..pray for me too ya..

flu...fly away pls... :(

ive been moving to a new workplace..kat plaza sentral, klsentral tu..(believe it or not, this is my 3rd workplace since i joined the company..in 2years time..heheh..terer tak??) baru je started 4days ago...and now i got flu!!! sbb mmg sejuk dlm opis tu..freezing!! kalau sejuk sket lg, air minum pun bleh jd ais :(

arrghh..hate this..dah laa im one of a kind yang susah nak tido..dapat plak lg flu, lagi laa susah...hmmm...jd panda lagi laa..plus plak ada benda2 yang membuatkan i feel like not so comfortable working in that place..langsung demotivated!! arrgh...ape tension2 sgt nih... ~sigh..ya Allah...permudahkanlaa segala urusanku..tenang2kan hati nih...aminn..

bengkel lhdn

21st nov 2005 - 23rd nov 2005

it was fun..held in fakulti sosial dan kemanusiaan, UKM Bangi..stay kat dorang nye kolej aminuddin baki..

memula cuak gak nak g..rasa mcm beban plak..sbb bende ni sebenarnye penilaian..nak jd staff dorang, kenelaa dinilai dulu kan...hmm..i passed the exam(held in PICC, Putrajaya)..and this bengkel is the 2nd stage..if pass plak bengkel nih, there will be a final assessment, which is the interview session...pehh...a bit complicated, isnt it..ye laa..cuba bygkan..from brape thousand yang apply and go for the exams, only 2049 yang passed..and from this figure, only 1500 will be selected for the interview...and then, filter lg..just nak amik bout 700 new staffs je..so no wonder they are doing such things..kalau tak, caner nak pilih kan..hehe..

ada case study, debate, group discussion..lari 2.4km..pehh penat..nasib baik tak collapse je that day..mana taknye, lari dgn perut kosong..masuk angin dah..kalau collapse, sure malu..sbb tak fit..huhuhu...patutnye lari on 530pm (22nd nov 2005) tu..but disebabkan hujan, so postpone to the next day..(6.30am)..aihhh..what a memorable bengkel..hehhe

even it was for 3 days only, i think im missing them already..dapat roommate yang ok (kak jay)..kawan yang sekepala (kak yan)..group yang gile2..everything simply goes fine..tak rasa pun yang sebenarnye we are competing to each other..hmm..hopefully sumenye still keeping in touch..to all yang sama2 berjuang, all the best for your future undertakings..kalau kite ada rezeki, kite bleh jumpa lg kat tempat keje baru tu..hehehehe...aminn..

"if there is a will, there is always a way..." :)