cinta pertamaku..not! ;p

aku tak penah tgk lg cite 'Cinta Pertama'..alaa movie indonesia yg keluar baru2 ni..
hmm, aku pun tak sure sangat tajuk dia ape sebenarnye..hahaha..
tp yg pasti, promotion cite tu tak sehangat cite 'Heart'..
cuma aku nak share kat sini..lagu tema cite tu..
singer dia nama Bunga Citra Lestari (memula aku ingat tu tajuk cite tu..pelik2 nama dorang ni..)
first time dgr, 2, 3, 4 times dgr, mmg sedih...
dengar lagi utk kesekian kali pun, tetap sedih..
aku suke lagu nih..walaupun kalau tak kene masa, buleh meleleh air mata..kehkehkeh..
aku rasa sbb cara penyampaian dia..terutama part chorus dia..pehhh menyentap!
so just feel the song la ok..

“Cinta Pertama” [Sunny] - Bunga Citra Lestari


p/s: aku tau korang akan gelak bile baca subtitle lagu ni..lagu tak sama ngan senikata..so just dgr je ye, jgn baca subtitle..hahaha

it happened..again??

arini aku rasa cam tak sedap ati lg..
mcm yang penah aku rasa tak lama dulu..
tahlaa..aku ingat balik "kampung" ni, dpt menceriakan hari2 aku..

lps pikir2 balik, aku rasa sbb:
1) aku susah ati pasal umah sewa..
dulu plan to rent a house with ana & chucky..byk bende aku plan nak buat kalau dapat tinggal serumah bersama2..tp atas sbb2 tertentu, dorang tarik diri..
chucky rasa bersalah, try to find me a bilik..thx a lot dude..tp bile lu dah cite pasal "conflict dalaman" umah tu, aku rasa serba salah..walaupun aku sebenarnye perlukan bilik tu utk weekdays je..takyah aku ulang alik rawang-subang tetiap ari..di mana penggunaan minyak+tol yang membulehkan aku makan pasir di tgh2 bulan..~sigh..

2) aku susah ati pasal kwn2 office aku..
a friend has been backstabbed by her bestfriend..pity her..
but she doesnt know! yet!
takyahla aku cite pasal ape..a lot of lies have been done, is now appearing sket demi sket..aku tak dapat bygkan ape yang akan terjadi kalau dia tau..kitorang try nak bgtau, tp she seems to trust her bestfriend sangat2..sbb she thinks, a bestfriend could have not done such thing to a bestfriend! so mmg dia takkan percaya la kalau kitorang cite perkara sebenar..tahla, we just let u to find out urself..kitorang tanak jd batu api (walaupun aku penah ko jadikan mangsa-hahaha, takpe aku tak amik ati) bia ko tau sendiri, bukan dgr cite dr org lain..aku harap sangat ko kuat semangat bile tau nanti..

3) aku susah ati pasal dinner jumaat nih..
hahaha..yg ni aku pun nak gelak..sbb aku tatau nak merempat umah sape utk bersiap..takdela bersiap sgt pun, atleast nak tuka baju, n make-up la sket2..walaupun aku admit, aku tak reti sungguh mekap2 ni..silap2 aribulan, aku leh jd pelakon opera cine..kehkehkeh..hmm ada yang singgah masjid tuka baju ni nanti..dahla tema 'dinner with stars'..haa stars la sangat..aku tak ready apepun..tak shopping tak ape..sbb aku tade idea nak pakai ape..so with that, aku akan pakai ape yang ada kat umah je..hopefully aku stars enuf laa..to shine on that nite..huhuhu..macam yakin ;p padahal aku tau, aku akan jd stars yang paling malap mlm tu nanti..takpelaa, takyah berhabis hanya utk satu mlm tu..bukannye aku nak masuk beauty pageant ke hape..baik aku simpan duit utk g pulau next month..(wahh..tak sabanye nak g pulau! part ni je yang leh buat aku senyum arini..)

4) aku susah ati pasal...tah!!!
yang ni aku simpan dlm ati je laa..susah nak luah kat sini.. :(( agak2 ati aku dah takleh tampung, baru aku cite nanti..

aku harap esok ada benda yang buleh buat aku happy balik..tolong gue..tolong..tolong put a smile on my face..arrghhh!

yeay! i got it back..heheh

la la la la laaaa...hari ini aku sangat hepi...
sbb finally...aku dah dapat "pulang" ke HQ..hah hah hah..
aku ske.. aku ske.. heheh
walaupun kami ditempatkan di tmpt yg agak kurang selesa (sbb dok sebelah2 bosses..shhh),
tapi takpelaa..aku tolak tepilaa..
yg penting, aku dah dapat my own cubicle!! hahahhaha..
how i miss to hv my own privacy kat office..
and now i got it! yeay! ;p

HeiWay!

last friday n saturday (18-19th may 2007) - kene g ada satu programme ni..they called it HeiWay Stars Programme..anjuran my company..sume staff kene pegi..tapi takla sume org sekaligus..mana cukup tempat..staff beribu..huhuhu..so kitorang were divided into 6 batches..kali ni tak kire pangkat ape pun staff tu..sume kene ikut the programme..dr pak guard..cleaner...smpi la bos besar2..huhuhuhu...

i was in 3rd batch..this time kitorang kat concorde inn, sepang..the place was ok..rasa mcm dok asrama pon ada..hiks..oh ya, i met my senior..back in primary school punye senior..dia manager kat situ rupenye..hahhaha..

ok back to the programme..memula rasa mcm tak best je..tp sbb ni dikira dlm KRA-KPI, so terpaksalaa mengejoinkan diri..ye le, kang tak perform lak..bile tak perform, tade increment..huhuhu..tapiiii rupenye best gile! org yang bagi talk tu, mmg best! tak memboringkan..plus plak dgn aktiviti2 dia sume..pehhh..tak terasa masa berjalan..pecah perut ngan gelagat masing2 bile buat aktiviti tu..the programme is all about transformation..change attitude towards excellence..above all, mmg menaikkan semangat la..walaupun tak byk, but still, motivated la gak..kire berjaya la programme ni.. :) tp sayangnye semalam je..kalau tau camni punye best, buat seminggu pun takpe..hahhaha...

ni aturcara program tu..
Day 1
6.00 PM – 7.30 PM Check In
7.30 PM – 8.30 PM Dinner
8.30 PM – 11.30 PM Session 1: HeiTech Transformation Journey
Day 2
7.00 AM – 8.30 AM Breakfast
8.30 AM – 10.30 AM Session 2: High impact @ Work
10.30 AM – 10.45 AM Tea Break
10.45 AM – 12.45 PM Session 3: Excellence in Action
12.45 PM – 2.00 PM Lunch
2.00 PM – 4.00 PM Session 4: Integrity above Yield
4.00 PM – 4.15 PM Tea Break
4.15 PM – 5.30 PM Session 5: HeiWay Stars in Action
5.30 PM – 6.00 PM Program Wrap-Up

oh ye, kitorang punye team name: Hei-Smart..smart la sangat kan..hahhahha.. tp mmg best la..rugi la sape yang tak pegi tu..heheh..


tu la team membernye..hehe..btw, for more pics: HeiWay

oops KTM..u did it again!

arini i reached d office kol 1015am..
sbb? train komuter rosak di tgh2 jln..
selama 1thn 9bln aku naik komuter ulang alik g ofis, 2kali je penah blaku perkara camtu..
first, train tu rosak masa stopped at Kuang station..terus mati enjin, then sume passenger diminta keluar dr train utk naik train seterusnye..we were lucky at that time sbb the platform was just outside the train..and we didnt have to wait so long..
but this time, very unfortunate! train tu mati enjin in between Segambut & Putra station..i think about 700m from Segambut station..kiri kanan hanyala semak samun..cemana nak keluar..at first ingatkan train tu tgh tunggu signal utk jalan..but then after a while..the aircond was gone..as well as the lights..everyone is calmly waited for the first 10mins..tp bile dah masuk 20mins, sume dah gelisah..some of them were looking for fresh air (nasib baik pagi..kalau time balik keje, tak dapat bayang bau dlm tu cemana..euuww!) pastu ada pekerja KTM opened up the door..and ada this chinese guy was trying to help by unlocking the window..what a saviour! heheh..

and bile masuk 30mins, sume dah start keluarkan hp..masing2 inform their office bout the unexpected circumstances, as the reason for being late..heard ppl moaning and groaning..it wasnt so bad for me sbb i have a seat..but sgtla kesian to those yang berdiri..lagi2 plak for women yang pakai heels...o been there, done that..menyebabkan kekejangan betis!

hmm..just after has been stucked in the train for 45mins, barulah terasa train tu berundur balik ke Segambut station..rasanye ada train lain yang tarik..or maybe jugak org2 KTM sendiri yang tolak? hmm yang tu kurang pasti sbb tak nmpk..heheh..

sampai kat station tu, sume berpusu2 keluar..some of us pegi platform belah sana..sbb dah ada train yg menunggu..but i just stayed kat platform belah sini sbb i know it wouldnt fit for all..lgpun ada announcement yang mintak all the passengers to wait kat platform belah sini je..for the train will be coming in another 10mins..tp bile sampai train tu, sume berebut2 naik..surela tak muat kan..lgpun, alang2 dah lmbt, takyah la nak rushing2..and for sure, tak dapat tmpt duduk..
so i decided to wait for the next train which has been informed to be arrived in another 8mins..and this time, alhamdulillah..train tak penuh :)

it was a tragic moments! kelakar pun ada..mcm2 ragam manusia boleh kite tgk..
hopefully this kind of problem tak jadi lg di masa2 akan dtg..please la KTM, do something..ppl are paying for ur services..bukan naik free..kalau boleh gantikan la train2 yang rosak tu dgn yang baru...we, the passenger, deserve a better service from u guys..kitorang dah sahut kempen kerajaan utk gunakan pengangkutan awam..so do not take it for granted! actually dah byk kali dgr pasal train rosakla..delayed la..ingatkan lesson learnt! one day, kalau penumpang makin berkurangan, jgn tanye kenape..u should have known the reason by then..and do not blame us for that!

the girl in my life.. :)

Sempena hari ibu ni, i'd like to share a thoughts..
got it by email..
which i think, they are true enuf to make me ponder.. :)

A little boy asked his mother,
“Why are you crying, mom?”

“Because I need to..” she said.

“I don’t understand..” he said.

His Mom just hugged him & said,
“And you never will..”

Later the little boy asked his father,
“Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?”

“All women cry for no reason..”
his dad answered carelessly.

The little boy , still wondering why women cry,
finally asked the old wise Shaikh.
“He surely knows the answer”, he thought.
“Ya Shaikh! Why do women cry so easily?”

He answered:
“When GOD made the woman she had to be made so special.
HE made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort.
HE gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth & the rejection that comes from her children.
HE gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, & take care of her family through sickness & fatigue without complaining.
HE gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any & all circumstances, even when her child hurts her very badly.
HE gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults & fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.
HE gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths & her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.

And lastly, HE gave her a tear.
This is hers & only hers exclusively to use whenever she needs it.
She needs no reason, no explanation, its hers.”

“You see my son.. the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, or the beauty of her face, or the way she combs her hair.
The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the door way to her heart - the place where LOVE resides.”

The little boy got the answer & never asked the question again.
its just a story..but then just described what a mother really is..
to mama, thank u for all you've done all these while..
u meant everything to me..to us..
without u & abah, i cant imagine what we would be..
no words would ever describe it..thanks a million!

A song for mama - Boyz II men

You taught me everything
And everything you’ve given me
I always keep it inside
You’re the driving force in my life, yeah
There isn’t anything
Or anyone I can be
And it just wouldn’t feel right
If I didn’t have you by my side
You were there for me to love and care for me
When skies were grey
Whenever I was down
You were always there to comfort me
And no one else can be what you have been to me
You’ll always be you always will be the girl
In my life for all times

Chorus:
Mama, mama you know I love you
Oh you know I love you
Mama, mama you’re the queen of my heart
Your love is like
Tears from the stars
Mama, I just want you to know
Lovin’ you is like food to my soul
You’re always down for me
Have always been around for me even when I was bad
You showed me right from my wrong
Yes you did
And you took up for me
When everyone was downin’ me
You always did understand
You gave me strength to go on
There was so many times
Looking back when I was so afraid
And then you come to me
And say to me I can face anything
And no one else can do
What you have done for me
You’ll always be
You will always be the girl in my life

i dedicate this song to my mom..

love u, ma! muuah! :)

yet to find out..

heard a news..
he's resigning..uhmm??
kenape ye?? dapat keje lain, or tak tahan dah handle project ni??
a fren of mine says, "sukela ko, org yang paling di'sayangi' ramai tu dah nak blah.."
hmm..suke ke? tahla..tade rasa pape..suke pun tak..tak suke pun tak jugak..tade beza pun dia ada atau tak..tp yang nyata, sume officemate mcm berpesta..meriah tetibe..huhuhu..

so who's next inline? oo having said that, the next PM will be the 5th PM to handle this project..hahah! at the moment, the project has been put up for 4yrs and still counting..
hmm..kat mana salahnye ye? i cant really answer that..since masa i joined this project pun, it has been critical enuf..am wondering, y is this project has been too complicated to manage? was it because of the architecture? the management? the client? or the attitude of the staff itself? hmm..yet to find out..

whatever it is..u'll be no longer working with us..wishing u the best of luck! just an advice, be careful of what u wish..if u wish to be a good manager, equip urself with the skills..i mean, the management skills..communicate with ur staff, let them know the situation that they are facing..acted like one! they get orders/informations from u, not from somebody else..be approachable! jgn tau nak bodek org atas je..backstab other ppl to be on top (euwwhh, it really sucks, man!)..do not just blame other ppl..and do not look down upon ppl..
u have been once in our position..im sure u know exactly how it feels..

oh ya, if u accidentally reading this, im not critisizing u..(or did i? its for ur own good tho..) im just saying outloud of what we felt all these while..anyhow, i apologize for all my wrongdoings, in those period we've been working together..just take this as a challenge! and i hope u'll success..

i wish i could..

he's lying on the bed..
helplessly..
just waiting for ppl around him to help..
feeding him, cleaning him..
now his life is just depending on the medicines..
he's fighting with his athma..
with the help from the inhaler, the equalizer and oxygen gas,
he can survive until now..
thats him..
my beloved grandpa..

its just so hurting to see him that way..
the most we can do, is rubbing his chest to ease him for breathing..
he's just so weak..
weak enough to make me cry..
the man who used to fetch us from school by his motorcycle,
is now hardly catching his own breath..
the man who used to laugh with all his grandchildren,
is now smiling weakly to them..
the man who used to having tea with his friends everyday,
is now needing ppl to give him a sip of tea..
i wish i could take all air in the world to help him breathe..
i wish i could see him in good health like before..
i wish he could bear the pain patiently..
i wish everything will turn fine..
hmm..i wish i could..

good old times..

Just got back from Julie's wedding..the one yang tempah kad kawen kat bandung aritu..it was held in Dewan Persidangan, Kompleks Perbadanan Putrajaya..the hall is nicely set up, but i would say it was more towards chinese or baba-nyonya style..maybe sbb her mom is a chinese-convert..

:: kitorang & pelamin yang tanpa pengantin ::

there were times where they run a slide show..showing pictures of both bride n groom, back to their childhood and up to the engagement pictures..termasuk gambar2 g bandung sume..itu ok lg..tp ada satu gamba tu, when we were in the same room masa kat ATPN (Asrama Toh Puan Norashikin) dulu..gamba masa form 1..masa tu i was so thin with nicely curved hair, wearing a green polka-dot baju kurung...hahahaha..what a shame! satu table gelakkan aku..hampeh punye kawan2 ;p

teringat zaman2 blaja dulu..mcm2 memorable stories happened dr form 1 sampai form 5..but those were the days..its our good old times, buddies.. :)

more piccies: wedding julie & rizal

demotivated? uhmm..

malasnye nak keje arini..dah sedap cuti panjang.. ;p
ingat nak sambung lg cuti..tp memandangkan nti memerlukan cuti for becoming vacations, maka reserve la cuti2 tu..hehehe..
byk lg plan2 yang belum terlaksana ni..
*pulau perhentian, singapore, sg sedim* and the list will go on ;)
ala lagipun khamis ngan jumaat je..pastu cuti balik..yeehaa!

hmm..arini tade kawan..sbb kak idra cuti..
bukan takleh makan ngan bebudak ofis ni..
tp malas plak nak turun..dah tapao awal2 pg td..
sian..makan roti je utk lunch..huhuhu
hmm mmg buleh kurus kalau camni selalu..*wink* hahah!

sangatla bosannye..
keje tade sangat arini..sbb rasanye user2 masih cuti..
so tadela nak encounter byk problem dr user..
but...i'll be getting a new task starting tomorrow..
which, task yg telah cuba dielakkan..
i guess tak dapat nak elak lg...
i have to do..im forced to.. :(
sbb the guy who used to do the task, sangat slow buat keje..
actually he can do it..tp memerlukan masa yang agak pjg..
n i guess, he felt just what i feel, prolly the others too..we are demotivated!
haihhh..bile la nak berenti mengeluh ni..