kepala pusing!

hmm..game yg malang..
arini masa futsal, aku telah dihadiahkan satu rembatan sulung dr Pakau..tepat di kepala!
pehhh berpinau! menitis jap air mate..bergegar rasa otak nih..
sampai skrg ni pun, rasa sisa2 sengal tadi..
harap2 tade ape la..
nak salahkan dia pun takleh gak..dia tak perasan..
tp nak salahkan aku pun tak gak..aku tak sempat nak elak..
hmm dah nasib nak kene..
slalu tu, kaki aku je jd mangsa..
arini, terus hit kat kepala..masa kene tu tak silap aku, tak sampai 20mins pun main..
terus aku kua court..g amik angin jap..agak2 reda sket, baru aku tgk dorang main balik..
memula ingat nak benti je main..tp biasalaa..degil..hiks..sambung la main gak..
tp lps tu, agak berhati2 la..hehehe...

tp kan, bile pandang dr sudut positif, tetibe kan, aku pasan..dengungan di telinga aku tu, terus ilang tu.. hmm..ajaib! adakah disebabkan tinge aku pun terkejut? or gegaran itu telah menyebabkan ruang2 dengungan telah lenyap begitu saje? hmm.. musykil..musykil..
takpe, aku observe minggu ni, aku hope tak jadi utk mlm ni je la kan..
mintak2 terus ilang la dengung2 tu.. since aku mmg malas nak g check kat doktor..hehehe..
kwn2 aku dah bising so g check..aku je degil..malas nak ngadap doktor.. ;)

tp mmg bisa la mamat tu rembat..
mmg aku ingat sampai bebile..
lps ni aku ingat aku nak pakai helmet la g main futsal..mcm jaki jipang..ekekeke..

dinner with stars?

aihhh..letih+ngantuk..ni just came back from company's annual dinner..
dinner sebelum ni, ramli sarip was the entertainer (read entry: pulang ke desa)..
kali ni, sifu punye turn plak..m nasir..held kat Ballroom, KL Convention Center..

hmm if i were to compare between the two dinners, ramli sarip was more entertaining than m nasir..this time around, lagu yang dinyanyikan tak byk..and i would say, interaksi dgn audience sgt ala kadar..even dia turun pentas n nyanyi bersama2, tp mcm ada yg kureng laa..ramli dulu takyah turun pentas pun, but still he could captured the attention..

pastu plak td bile dah abes nyanyi, terus je g blkg pentas n tak muncul2 dah..balik terus kot..tak nampak byg pun..tade pun sesi nak bergamba ke ape..unlike masa ramli dulu, siap buleh amik signature, borak2, amik gamba sampai nak muntah..

hmm lain org lain cara, ye tak..
tp yg pasti mmg kali ni punye dinner tak se-gah temanye, 'Dinner with stars!'..
perancangan dr awal pun dah bg petunjuk yg dinner ni tadela best mana..mana taknye:
1) tak inform pasal dinner lebih awal..we've got informed just 2 weeks before the dinner..mmg tak sempatla nak tempah baju ke ape kan..kalau last time, 2bulan sebelum tu dah kecoh!
2) no tentative program..cuma diberitahu, be there 7pm sharp!
3) ha gile kan..7pm..kunun2 ada red carpet session..sure korang ckp, tak sbyg maghrib ke? hmm ayat yang sama la gak aku tanye..aihh..Tuhan je tau..

so sbb2 itu gakla yang buatkan aku kurang excited..
aku tak ready ape2 sangat pun..so aku pakai je la baju yang ada kat dlm wardrobe kat umah tu..hmm which yang aku dah penah pakai pun..shhh! heheh...like i said, takyah berhabis..huhuhu..first, mmg tade idea nak dress up baju ape..second, sbb tade masa pun nak survey2 baju..since aku dah penat ulang alik rawang-subang, aku tade masa nak singgah memana dah lps office hour..bile weekend pun aku tade perasaan nak shopping..so i end up wearing a very simple outfit :)



oh ye, lupe plak..aku sempat beli tudung je ngan beg dinner..kire kalau org tanye, part mana yang buatkan aku star, aku ckp, tudung aku je yang star..kehkehkeh..bling2 enuf la kan to be a star.. :p

pastu kali ni aku tak dapat lucky draw cam last dinner.. huhuhu..sedih..hadiah sampai 210, tp buleh tade satu pun yang kene..hmmph..but then, still dapat lucky table..hadiahnye, aku nak bgtau pun sedih..hahaha..tupperware yang buleh masuk microwave tu ;p ok la tu kan..drpd tade..hehehe..

gamba2 dah diupload into picasaweb.. see: dinner with stars

cinta pertamaku..not! ;p

aku tak penah tgk lg cite 'Cinta Pertama'..alaa movie indonesia yg keluar baru2 ni..
hmm, aku pun tak sure sangat tajuk dia ape sebenarnye..hahaha..
tp yg pasti, promotion cite tu tak sehangat cite 'Heart'..
cuma aku nak share kat sini..lagu tema cite tu..
singer dia nama Bunga Citra Lestari (memula aku ingat tu tajuk cite tu..pelik2 nama dorang ni..)
first time dgr, 2, 3, 4 times dgr, mmg sedih...
dengar lagi utk kesekian kali pun, tetap sedih..
aku suke lagu nih..walaupun kalau tak kene masa, buleh meleleh air mata..kehkehkeh..
aku rasa sbb cara penyampaian dia..terutama part chorus dia..pehhh menyentap!
so just feel the song la ok..

“Cinta Pertama” [Sunny] - Bunga Citra Lestari


p/s: aku tau korang akan gelak bile baca subtitle lagu ni..lagu tak sama ngan senikata..so just dgr je ye, jgn baca subtitle..hahaha

it happened..again??

arini aku rasa cam tak sedap ati lg..
mcm yang penah aku rasa tak lama dulu..
tahlaa..aku ingat balik "kampung" ni, dpt menceriakan hari2 aku..

lps pikir2 balik, aku rasa sbb:
1) aku susah ati pasal umah sewa..
dulu plan to rent a house with ana & chucky..byk bende aku plan nak buat kalau dapat tinggal serumah bersama2..tp atas sbb2 tertentu, dorang tarik diri..
chucky rasa bersalah, try to find me a bilik..thx a lot dude..tp bile lu dah cite pasal "conflict dalaman" umah tu, aku rasa serba salah..walaupun aku sebenarnye perlukan bilik tu utk weekdays je..takyah aku ulang alik rawang-subang tetiap ari..di mana penggunaan minyak+tol yang membulehkan aku makan pasir di tgh2 bulan..~sigh..

2) aku susah ati pasal kwn2 office aku..
a friend has been backstabbed by her bestfriend..pity her..
but she doesnt know! yet!
takyahla aku cite pasal ape..a lot of lies have been done, is now appearing sket demi sket..aku tak dapat bygkan ape yang akan terjadi kalau dia tau..kitorang try nak bgtau, tp she seems to trust her bestfriend sangat2..sbb she thinks, a bestfriend could have not done such thing to a bestfriend! so mmg dia takkan percaya la kalau kitorang cite perkara sebenar..tahla, we just let u to find out urself..kitorang tanak jd batu api (walaupun aku penah ko jadikan mangsa-hahaha, takpe aku tak amik ati) bia ko tau sendiri, bukan dgr cite dr org lain..aku harap sangat ko kuat semangat bile tau nanti..

3) aku susah ati pasal dinner jumaat nih..
hahaha..yg ni aku pun nak gelak..sbb aku tatau nak merempat umah sape utk bersiap..takdela bersiap sgt pun, atleast nak tuka baju, n make-up la sket2..walaupun aku admit, aku tak reti sungguh mekap2 ni..silap2 aribulan, aku leh jd pelakon opera cine..kehkehkeh..hmm ada yang singgah masjid tuka baju ni nanti..dahla tema 'dinner with stars'..haa stars la sangat..aku tak ready apepun..tak shopping tak ape..sbb aku tade idea nak pakai ape..so with that, aku akan pakai ape yang ada kat umah je..hopefully aku stars enuf laa..to shine on that nite..huhuhu..macam yakin ;p padahal aku tau, aku akan jd stars yang paling malap mlm tu nanti..takpelaa, takyah berhabis hanya utk satu mlm tu..bukannye aku nak masuk beauty pageant ke hape..baik aku simpan duit utk g pulau next month..(wahh..tak sabanye nak g pulau! part ni je yang leh buat aku senyum arini..)

4) aku susah ati pasal...tah!!!
yang ni aku simpan dlm ati je laa..susah nak luah kat sini.. :(( agak2 ati aku dah takleh tampung, baru aku cite nanti..

aku harap esok ada benda yang buleh buat aku happy balik..tolong gue..tolong..tolong put a smile on my face..arrghhh!

yeay! i got it back..heheh

la la la la laaaa...hari ini aku sangat hepi...
sbb finally...aku dah dapat "pulang" ke HQ..hah hah hah..
aku ske.. aku ske.. heheh
walaupun kami ditempatkan di tmpt yg agak kurang selesa (sbb dok sebelah2 bosses..shhh),
tapi takpelaa..aku tolak tepilaa..
yg penting, aku dah dapat my own cubicle!! hahahhaha..
how i miss to hv my own privacy kat office..
and now i got it! yeay! ;p

HeiWay!

last friday n saturday (18-19th may 2007) - kene g ada satu programme ni..they called it HeiWay Stars Programme..anjuran my company..sume staff kene pegi..tapi takla sume org sekaligus..mana cukup tempat..staff beribu..huhuhu..so kitorang were divided into 6 batches..kali ni tak kire pangkat ape pun staff tu..sume kene ikut the programme..dr pak guard..cleaner...smpi la bos besar2..huhuhuhu...

i was in 3rd batch..this time kitorang kat concorde inn, sepang..the place was ok..rasa mcm dok asrama pon ada..hiks..oh ya, i met my senior..back in primary school punye senior..dia manager kat situ rupenye..hahhaha..

ok back to the programme..memula rasa mcm tak best je..tp sbb ni dikira dlm KRA-KPI, so terpaksalaa mengejoinkan diri..ye le, kang tak perform lak..bile tak perform, tade increment..huhuhu..tapiiii rupenye best gile! org yang bagi talk tu, mmg best! tak memboringkan..plus plak dgn aktiviti2 dia sume..pehhh..tak terasa masa berjalan..pecah perut ngan gelagat masing2 bile buat aktiviti tu..the programme is all about transformation..change attitude towards excellence..above all, mmg menaikkan semangat la..walaupun tak byk, but still, motivated la gak..kire berjaya la programme ni.. :) tp sayangnye semalam je..kalau tau camni punye best, buat seminggu pun takpe..hahhaha...

ni aturcara program tu..
Day 1
6.00 PM – 7.30 PM Check In
7.30 PM – 8.30 PM Dinner
8.30 PM – 11.30 PM Session 1: HeiTech Transformation Journey
Day 2
7.00 AM – 8.30 AM Breakfast
8.30 AM – 10.30 AM Session 2: High impact @ Work
10.30 AM – 10.45 AM Tea Break
10.45 AM – 12.45 PM Session 3: Excellence in Action
12.45 PM – 2.00 PM Lunch
2.00 PM – 4.00 PM Session 4: Integrity above Yield
4.00 PM – 4.15 PM Tea Break
4.15 PM – 5.30 PM Session 5: HeiWay Stars in Action
5.30 PM – 6.00 PM Program Wrap-Up

oh ye, kitorang punye team name: Hei-Smart..smart la sangat kan..hahhahha.. tp mmg best la..rugi la sape yang tak pegi tu..heheh..


tu la team membernye..hehe..btw, for more pics: HeiWay

oops KTM..u did it again!

arini i reached d office kol 1015am..
sbb? train komuter rosak di tgh2 jln..
selama 1thn 9bln aku naik komuter ulang alik g ofis, 2kali je penah blaku perkara camtu..
first, train tu rosak masa stopped at Kuang station..terus mati enjin, then sume passenger diminta keluar dr train utk naik train seterusnye..we were lucky at that time sbb the platform was just outside the train..and we didnt have to wait so long..
but this time, very unfortunate! train tu mati enjin in between Segambut & Putra station..i think about 700m from Segambut station..kiri kanan hanyala semak samun..cemana nak keluar..at first ingatkan train tu tgh tunggu signal utk jalan..but then after a while..the aircond was gone..as well as the lights..everyone is calmly waited for the first 10mins..tp bile dah masuk 20mins, sume dah gelisah..some of them were looking for fresh air (nasib baik pagi..kalau time balik keje, tak dapat bayang bau dlm tu cemana..euuww!) pastu ada pekerja KTM opened up the door..and ada this chinese guy was trying to help by unlocking the window..what a saviour! heheh..

and bile masuk 30mins, sume dah start keluarkan hp..masing2 inform their office bout the unexpected circumstances, as the reason for being late..heard ppl moaning and groaning..it wasnt so bad for me sbb i have a seat..but sgtla kesian to those yang berdiri..lagi2 plak for women yang pakai heels...o been there, done that..menyebabkan kekejangan betis!

hmm..just after has been stucked in the train for 45mins, barulah terasa train tu berundur balik ke Segambut station..rasanye ada train lain yang tarik..or maybe jugak org2 KTM sendiri yang tolak? hmm yang tu kurang pasti sbb tak nmpk..heheh..

sampai kat station tu, sume berpusu2 keluar..some of us pegi platform belah sana..sbb dah ada train yg menunggu..but i just stayed kat platform belah sini sbb i know it wouldnt fit for all..lgpun ada announcement yang mintak all the passengers to wait kat platform belah sini je..for the train will be coming in another 10mins..tp bile sampai train tu, sume berebut2 naik..surela tak muat kan..lgpun, alang2 dah lmbt, takyah la nak rushing2..and for sure, tak dapat tmpt duduk..
so i decided to wait for the next train which has been informed to be arrived in another 8mins..and this time, alhamdulillah..train tak penuh :)

it was a tragic moments! kelakar pun ada..mcm2 ragam manusia boleh kite tgk..
hopefully this kind of problem tak jadi lg di masa2 akan dtg..please la KTM, do something..ppl are paying for ur services..bukan naik free..kalau boleh gantikan la train2 yang rosak tu dgn yang baru...we, the passenger, deserve a better service from u guys..kitorang dah sahut kempen kerajaan utk gunakan pengangkutan awam..so do not take it for granted! actually dah byk kali dgr pasal train rosakla..delayed la..ingatkan lesson learnt! one day, kalau penumpang makin berkurangan, jgn tanye kenape..u should have known the reason by then..and do not blame us for that!

the girl in my life.. :)

Sempena hari ibu ni, i'd like to share a thoughts..
got it by email..
which i think, they are true enuf to make me ponder.. :)

A little boy asked his mother,
“Why are you crying, mom?”

“Because I need to..” she said.

“I don’t understand..” he said.

His Mom just hugged him & said,
“And you never will..”

Later the little boy asked his father,
“Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?”

“All women cry for no reason..”
his dad answered carelessly.

The little boy , still wondering why women cry,
finally asked the old wise Shaikh.
“He surely knows the answer”, he thought.
“Ya Shaikh! Why do women cry so easily?”

He answered:
“When GOD made the woman she had to be made so special.
HE made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort.
HE gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth & the rejection that comes from her children.
HE gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, & take care of her family through sickness & fatigue without complaining.
HE gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any & all circumstances, even when her child hurts her very badly.
HE gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults & fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.
HE gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths & her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.

And lastly, HE gave her a tear.
This is hers & only hers exclusively to use whenever she needs it.
She needs no reason, no explanation, its hers.”

“You see my son.. the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, or the beauty of her face, or the way she combs her hair.
The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the door way to her heart - the place where LOVE resides.”

The little boy got the answer & never asked the question again.
its just a story..but then just described what a mother really is..
to mama, thank u for all you've done all these while..
u meant everything to me..to us..
without u & abah, i cant imagine what we would be..
no words would ever describe it..thanks a million!

A song for mama - Boyz II men

You taught me everything
And everything you’ve given me
I always keep it inside
You’re the driving force in my life, yeah
There isn’t anything
Or anyone I can be
And it just wouldn’t feel right
If I didn’t have you by my side
You were there for me to love and care for me
When skies were grey
Whenever I was down
You were always there to comfort me
And no one else can be what you have been to me
You’ll always be you always will be the girl
In my life for all times

Chorus:
Mama, mama you know I love you
Oh you know I love you
Mama, mama you’re the queen of my heart
Your love is like
Tears from the stars
Mama, I just want you to know
Lovin’ you is like food to my soul
You’re always down for me
Have always been around for me even when I was bad
You showed me right from my wrong
Yes you did
And you took up for me
When everyone was downin’ me
You always did understand
You gave me strength to go on
There was so many times
Looking back when I was so afraid
And then you come to me
And say to me I can face anything
And no one else can do
What you have done for me
You’ll always be
You will always be the girl in my life

i dedicate this song to my mom..

love u, ma! muuah! :)

yet to find out..

heard a news..
he's resigning..uhmm??
kenape ye?? dapat keje lain, or tak tahan dah handle project ni??
a fren of mine says, "sukela ko, org yang paling di'sayangi' ramai tu dah nak blah.."
hmm..suke ke? tahla..tade rasa pape..suke pun tak..tak suke pun tak jugak..tade beza pun dia ada atau tak..tp yang nyata, sume officemate mcm berpesta..meriah tetibe..huhuhu..

so who's next inline? oo having said that, the next PM will be the 5th PM to handle this project..hahah! at the moment, the project has been put up for 4yrs and still counting..
hmm..kat mana salahnye ye? i cant really answer that..since masa i joined this project pun, it has been critical enuf..am wondering, y is this project has been too complicated to manage? was it because of the architecture? the management? the client? or the attitude of the staff itself? hmm..yet to find out..

whatever it is..u'll be no longer working with us..wishing u the best of luck! just an advice, be careful of what u wish..if u wish to be a good manager, equip urself with the skills..i mean, the management skills..communicate with ur staff, let them know the situation that they are facing..acted like one! they get orders/informations from u, not from somebody else..be approachable! jgn tau nak bodek org atas je..backstab other ppl to be on top (euwwhh, it really sucks, man!)..do not just blame other ppl..and do not look down upon ppl..
u have been once in our position..im sure u know exactly how it feels..

oh ya, if u accidentally reading this, im not critisizing u..(or did i? its for ur own good tho..) im just saying outloud of what we felt all these while..anyhow, i apologize for all my wrongdoings, in those period we've been working together..just take this as a challenge! and i hope u'll success..

i wish i could..

he's lying on the bed..
helplessly..
just waiting for ppl around him to help..
feeding him, cleaning him..
now his life is just depending on the medicines..
he's fighting with his athma..
with the help from the inhaler, the equalizer and oxygen gas,
he can survive until now..
thats him..
my beloved grandpa..

its just so hurting to see him that way..
the most we can do, is rubbing his chest to ease him for breathing..
he's just so weak..
weak enough to make me cry..
the man who used to fetch us from school by his motorcycle,
is now hardly catching his own breath..
the man who used to laugh with all his grandchildren,
is now smiling weakly to them..
the man who used to having tea with his friends everyday,
is now needing ppl to give him a sip of tea..
i wish i could take all air in the world to help him breathe..
i wish i could see him in good health like before..
i wish he could bear the pain patiently..
i wish everything will turn fine..
hmm..i wish i could..

good old times..

Just got back from Julie's wedding..the one yang tempah kad kawen kat bandung aritu..it was held in Dewan Persidangan, Kompleks Perbadanan Putrajaya..the hall is nicely set up, but i would say it was more towards chinese or baba-nyonya style..maybe sbb her mom is a chinese-convert..

:: kitorang & pelamin yang tanpa pengantin ::

there were times where they run a slide show..showing pictures of both bride n groom, back to their childhood and up to the engagement pictures..termasuk gambar2 g bandung sume..itu ok lg..tp ada satu gamba tu, when we were in the same room masa kat ATPN (Asrama Toh Puan Norashikin) dulu..gamba masa form 1..masa tu i was so thin with nicely curved hair, wearing a green polka-dot baju kurung...hahahaha..what a shame! satu table gelakkan aku..hampeh punye kawan2 ;p

teringat zaman2 blaja dulu..mcm2 memorable stories happened dr form 1 sampai form 5..but those were the days..its our good old times, buddies.. :)

more piccies: wedding julie & rizal

demotivated? uhmm..

malasnye nak keje arini..dah sedap cuti panjang.. ;p
ingat nak sambung lg cuti..tp memandangkan nti memerlukan cuti for becoming vacations, maka reserve la cuti2 tu..hehehe..
byk lg plan2 yang belum terlaksana ni..
*pulau perhentian, singapore, sg sedim* and the list will go on ;)
ala lagipun khamis ngan jumaat je..pastu cuti balik..yeehaa!

hmm..arini tade kawan..sbb kak idra cuti..
bukan takleh makan ngan bebudak ofis ni..
tp malas plak nak turun..dah tapao awal2 pg td..
sian..makan roti je utk lunch..huhuhu
hmm mmg buleh kurus kalau camni selalu..*wink* hahah!

sangatla bosannye..
keje tade sangat arini..sbb rasanye user2 masih cuti..
so tadela nak encounter byk problem dr user..
but...i'll be getting a new task starting tomorrow..
which, task yg telah cuba dielakkan..
i guess tak dapat nak elak lg...
i have to do..im forced to.. :(
sbb the guy who used to do the task, sangat slow buat keje..
actually he can do it..tp memerlukan masa yang agak pjg..
n i guess, he felt just what i feel, prolly the others too..we are demotivated!
haihhh..bile la nak berenti mengeluh ni..

another birthday bash!

29th Apr 2007 - celebrated birthdays for April's gorgeous (suya-25th & fai-30th) Happy bday, girls!!

morning - g tgk muvi..wild hogs @KLCC.. gile klaka..ekeke..kalau nak ilangkan stress/tension, i recommend u to catch the movie..
afternoon - g News KTV @Plaza Yow Chuan..melalak le..ape lagi..3 jam plak tu..huhu.."bleeding throat"..kehkehkeh..
mlm - g dinner @kedai alip - Mami Jarum Western, Selayang..not bad at all..tp alipnye tade..cheh..penatnye dtg tunjuk muke ;p

it had been a tiring day..but i had fun tho..
lps ni tinggal J & lily je..lom sampai masa nak celebrate pon ;p
buleh plan something else..heheh

sampai mati? hmm..

love the song and the melody..its catchy..
but cant help to hate the lyrics..
kalau la sesenang nyanyi lagu utk minta maaf..
i just couldnt imagine how peaceful this world could be..
hmm tahla..

Dewa 19 - Dewi
Dewi aku mohon beri kesempatan
Tuk bisa menebus dosaku kepadamu
Maafkanlah aku yang menyakitimu
Aku tidak pernah menyangka bisa begini

Oh dewi, dengarkanlah…

Dewi kaulah hidupku
Aku cinta padamu sampai mati
Dewi belahlah dadaku
Agar kau tahu
Agar kau mengerti

Wou wou wou

Semua terjadi begitu saja
Tak ada yang serius antara dia dan aku
Tidak ada cinta dan tak ada hati
Hanya karena aku lelaki dan dia wanita



tp terpulangla pada setiap individu utk menilai..
bak kata pepatah, "hanya jauhari mengenal manikam" :)

mama - a year younger ;p

21st Apr - was mama's bday..kali ni abah decided to celebrate kat Hotel Nikko, jalan ampang..foods are delicious but somehow limited..i mean not as much as we had in PJhilton..
btw, byk mana pun leh makan, as i am now in my diet program..muahaha..
(am i on diet?? nahh..tak menjadi pun..ekeke)

dlm byk2 makanan yang 'sempat' dimakan..ehem ehem..
what i like most are, the sambal udang n pajeri terung..uuhh just love them..
fyi, im a seafood lover..n a terung lover as well..hiks..
yang lain2 tu, so-so la..asal kenyang..alhamdulillah..

hmm taktau nak bg ape kat mama..
since mother's day pun will be coming soon, so im thinking of buying her something nice n she could use it like forever..hehe..
mahal or murah tak penting, is the thoughts that counts ;)
tp ape ye..?? any suggestions??

layann...

tgh2 kusut fikiran ni, layan lagu best gak..
hmm..lagu ni first dengar masa tgh shopping kat Bandung..
masa tu kat factory outlet Rumah Mode..dorang pasang lagu ni..
actually pasang the whole album la..dah nama pasang satu cd..heheh..
best2 gak lagu2 dorang ni..buleh layan la..
nti ye i'll post lagu2 yang lain..kalau rajin la..huhuhu
sementara tu, enjoy dulu lagu ni! :)


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Reff:
Biarlah ku simpan sampai nanti aku kan ada di sana
Tenanglah dirimu dalam kedamaian
Ingatlah cintaku kau tak terlihat lagi
Namun cintamu abadi
p/s: teringat bandung, rasa nak bcuti lg.. ;)

yesterday was hoping not to approach KL in the morning..
tp malangnye, kene masuk gak..aihh..
sbb? sbb ajim kata arini last day dia kat klcc...
bile dia ckp camtu, kesian la pulak..

hampeh tul adik aku ni..smlm aku bbaik ati sbb 'first day'..
arini aku kene lg..'last day' dia pulak..
sbb esok dia dah start posting kat melaka..
takpe jim..sib baik 2 ari..
pastu..yg lg best, arini tak jam sgt..
so kol 802am, aku dah terpacak kat opis..
hahaha..lagi awal dr smlm..hahaha..mmg minggu yg gile..

pepagi tu, rasa mcm best je..ye la..mmg mcm tak saba la kan nak balik HQ..
rupe2nya, gembira yang kurasa tak sampai ke petang..
dlm kol 11, dia turun drpd meeting membawa perkhabaran yang mmg langsung menghancur-ranapkan impian2 aku nak balik HQ..
arrghhhh..tension nye!!
dah tau dah..mmg takleh pakai ckp2 dia ni..
ckp putar belit..kejap buleh, kejap tak..
kali ni dia nak assign aku buat keje lain plak..
kalau dah ada keje lain, sah2la kene tinggal lg kat sini..
takleh la balik HQ..uwaaa!!!

ptg plak dapat masalah lg dr user..
mmg terkenal user ni dgn kesengalan dia..
byk kali ajar pun tak lps2 gak..asek blur je..
tak ingat la..lupe la..
haiiiihhhhh...
lepas satu, satu yg dtg...
mencabar kewibawaan sungguh!
bile aku boleh balik nih???

no promises..not anymore.. :(

starting today onwards..i'll be all alone in the office.. :(
not la that "alone"..ada la lg colleagues yg masih tinggal..
tp sume nye lelaki..
kalau ada pun pompuan, sume level bos..
sorang suke buat keje sendiri..
sorang lg selagi lom kol 10, selagi tu la tak sampai..
hmm..clan2 pompuan aku sume dah di anta balik ke HQ..
aku?? masih di sini..~sigh..

dahla arini dtg awal..kol 820am dah sampai ofis..
slalunye naik komuter je..dah nak dekat kol 9 baru sampai opis..haha
tp arini kene drive sbb anta ajim g report duty kat petronas, klcc..
630am dah kua umah..sbb dia masuk kol 800am..
tak penah2 seawal tu kua umah...slalunye 630 tu baring2 atas katil lg..ekeke..
dah suruh naik lrt je, tp ngengade mintak soh anta gak..
ye la first day la kunun :p
pastu aku plak tu yang kene drive..
hmmph..takpela, adik punye pasal..

mak aih..punye la jam..ingatkan kua awal, kurangla jamnye..
hmmph, sama je..
cume kua awal, leh la sampai awal..
tp in terms of "jalan kosong kalau kua awal", jgn harap!
so sempatla sampai ofis dia td kol 745am..
rasanye serik dah nak masuk kl pepagi mcm ni..
esok soh dia naik lrt je..muahahhaha
tp aiseh..kol 730am la aku sampai opis sok..
dah sah2 dia nak kene naik lrt dari klsentral kol 730am..
takpe la, dr aku saket ati sbb jalan sesak, baik aku saket ati dtg opis awal..hahaha..
sanggup ke aku?? we'll see ;D

sampai ofis je, manager aku yang 'sangat disayangi' ramai dah sampai..
pastu tanye aku nak balik HQ ke tak..i was like, 'huh? boleh dia tanye soklan tu..of course i do! duhh..'
then he said, insyaAllah dlm bulan 5..
hmm should i trust him?? ni dah kali ke brape tah promises yang he made..
a few minutes after tu, dia g bfast ngan bbudak lelaki..
lps bfast, he came out with another promise, which will send me back to HQ in a few days time..perrghhh...tah ape la yang bbudak lelaki tu convincekan dia..hahahhahaha

then barula dapat tau, rupenye one of my colleagues sanggup amik alih tugas2ku..hehe..thx bob!
lgpun dah tak byk dah..
n i'll be reassigned to my previous team..hehe..
sbb dorang kesian tgk aku sorang2 terkebil2 kat situ..
terkebil2 ke aku?? muahahha..
takla sampai terkebil2..haha..ish, tade la..ada ke.. ;p
tp bile bfast & lunch hour, kene call my saviour..
kat projek lain, kat bangunan sebelah..huhu..
sib baik masih ada gak teman..thx kak idra :)
cumenye for future, if she's on leave, or mc ke..
haa..padan la ngan muke aku kan..kene la tapao jawabnye..
n what if hari jumaat plak masa tu..
hmm sah2 aku kene panggil another saviour..chucky or J or both..huhu..
sbb aku tau, i can count on them..mmuuahh! ;)
arghhh...kesiannye idup! ~sigh..

takpe takpe..i'll survive..yeah! only the strongest will survive! hiks..
(strong ke? baru first day tade kawan, dah sangap :< )
cume hoping yang he'll do as promised..
i cant take anymore fake promises! letih tau..

gud news..in a bad day..

hmm.. a day full of sickness, i would say..
woke up this morning dengan rasa saket kat gusi..
walked to the office dengan saket kat tumit kaki..
and been working dengan saket berdengung dlm telinga ni..
plus plak lg dgn berita some of my colleagues will be moving back to our HQ..
leaving me, only 1 girl left with a few other guys..
dah tade geng dah nak borak, bfast n lunch sesama ;'(
arrghhh..what a day!

but all of a sudden, everything turns fine..
y? hehehe..
just because of one letter..received from the company..
titled 'Promotion and Salary Revision'..
alhamdulillah..eventhough there would be no bonus for this year, a little increment would still cheer up my day.. :)
and another thing is, i've been promoted! hiks..
even tak sehebat mana pun, im still grateful for what i've earned..
hmm a part of the letter says, "This promotion is in recognition of the fine work you have done for the company" :)
all the hard work is now paid..alhamdulillah..
i hope i'll continue working with the same level of enthusiasm, or prolly more..insyaAllah..

went home with smile..
a little while later, baru terasa saket kat gusi tu balik..huhu..
bile check, saket tu actually is not coming from the gum..but it is an ulser indeed..
aihh..patutla semacam je rasa saket dia..
kalau kene ulser, slalunye minum air bergelen2, ulser tu akan surut sendiri..
kalau tak elok gak, g klinik la jawabnye kan..

for those yang nak balik HQ tu, sedia2kan la tmpt aku ye..
aku pun nak balik situ gak..uhuk uhuk..
dah lama tak rasa keje kat office sendiri..hmmmm.. :<

berdesir..berdengung..it hurts!

telinga berdengung..dah a few weeks gak la mende ni happened..tetiba je berdengung..kdg2 sebelah..kdg2 dua2 belah..yg aku perasan, slalu kene time mlm..mostly lps mandi..ataupun masa nak tdo..arrghh..saket..rasa mencucuk2..walaupun takla sampai berdarah, tp it still hurts! :'(

tetibe teringat pasal email yang penah dapat 2-3 years back..pasal 100 hari tanda2 kematian..gulp..ni one of the tanda2 ke? try to refresh this tiny mind..tp tak ingat la plak telinga bdengung ni ada kene mengena tak dlm tanda2 tu..cuba cari balik email tu..tak jumpa plak..haih..tp gerun gak..buatnye jumpe email tu, n salah satu tanda ialah telinga berdengung...??

at this moment pun i feel it..am i gonna die?
hmm..sebak rasa hati ni..
bukan sebak sbb tak puas lg jln2..
bukan sebak sbb tak dapat capai lg impian idup..
bukan..
tapi..
sebak sbb amal yang sangatla sedikit..
sebak sbb masih belum dapat tunaikan impian mama & abah..
sebak sbb tinggalkan org2 tersayang..
sebak sbb tak layak rasanye nak menghadap yang Esa..
sebak atas dosa2 yang tak terhitung byknye..
~sigh..tahla..bercampur baur rasanye..
"Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, kau ampunkanla segala dosa hambamu ini..amiin.."

for those yang baca blog aku ni..
yang aku ada byk salah/dosa kat korang, aku minta maaf ye..
ampunkan sume salah silap aku..
aku tau aku byk buat salah kat korang..
yang zahir, mahupun yang hanya terdetik sekilas dlm hati..
terumpat, terpuji, makan & minum halalkan ye..(mcm hari raya plak..hiks..)
dosa2 korang aku dah ampunkan..dan aku doakan kesejahteraan korang sume..
jaga diri korang baik2..
sekiranye satu hari nanti kite bertemu lg, aku harap hanya yang terbaik utk kite..insyaAllah..